After quite a very long time, a few days ago I got a flu - a serious one that forces me to skip a class and took a day off to recover. But then, it gives me a lot of time to think, something that rarely happen lately, as my mind is always full with projects and other stuffs (which may or may not - usually not - important). After a while, I found a time that I don’t have to do anything, just sit down, rest, and probably think. That feeling of peace really do have a good effect on my health, as I already mostly recovered on the next day to deliver a final presentation on the Software Engineering course.

So, now, after the Software Engineering course is over (well, 98% over, actually, as we still have to submit the client acceptance statement and also probably a paper), I only have one project left, the Enterprise Application which is due next week on Wednesday. That means, now I have more time to think and relax.

Well, what have I been thinking? Well, actually I felt that lately I changed a lot. I am now more realistic to life, but unfortunately have partly lost my motivation on achieving the best out of myself. Lately, I have become more lazy and less disciplined. For the last couple of years, I always wandered why my results are not as good as before, although I did succeed in several things as well. Now I know why : I did not try hard and smart enough like before. I wasted a lot of time and somehow lost my interest in learning and also lost my persistence in learning things. I gave up more easily now, and that explains why I did not reach the top most of the time.

So, I think it’s the time for me to change. It’s time to go forward instead of living in the success of the past. It’s time to break the limits again. It’s time to go out of my comfort zone and take the new challenges. It’s time to determine my future. Wish me luck!

-Kurniady